Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Happy New Year!
Because my birthday is so close to January 1, each new calendar year also marks a new year in my life (give or take a couple of days). I can be a tiny bit ocd/perfectionist so that really just pleases me in the weirdest way.
The first week of January, I had the privilege of looking out across the ocean, breathing in big gulps of salty air and thinking. I did a lot of thinking. Thoughts about the past year, the past four years I spent in college, and the point where I now stand. I thought about what things have changed and those that have not. I thought about the people that have appeared in my life and those that are no longer around. I examined the changes.
Change is such a strange concept to me. Whenever I describe myself, I typically say that I don't like change. It's not that good change bothers me. Oftentimes I want to change something for the better, but the process of achieving that change will be uncomfortable-and the fear of failure is intimidating.
The new year rolls around and change is on everyone's minds. I think it is important to take a good hard look at your life. What are you proud/not proud of? What is bringing negativity into your life? Are you bringing negativity into someone else's life? What do you want to achieve and what changes are necessary to achieve that? Are you really taking the initiative to live healthily and happily? Are you making any excuses? Be gut honest with yourself about the good and the bad.
The good thing about the new year is that suddenly we all wake up with this motivation to make goals-and hopefully WORK toward those goals! The fear of the challenge or possible failure is diminished as we all start with a clean slate. I like that.
I don't have any major goals to add to my list this year as I am still slowly working towards one in particular at the moment (see picture :) ). I do have several little goals, new habits and mindsets I want to work on. They all sort of point to a common goal of increased efficiency and consistency.
I am not attempting to create a whole new "me" this year. I want to make friends with who I am and not just accept "me"-but love "me" and who God made "me" to be. I make a lot of decisions and garner much of my value based on how effectively I am pleasing those around me. It's a quite difficult way to live, and it doesn't really make sense.
I want to start a habit of being proud of myself when I do something good. End of story.
I want to do things because I want to and because it makes me happy. End of story.
I want to be bold about who I am, who I want to become, and what I want to do-without apologizing.
The first month of 2014 has been an interesting one. I started my new courses (including neuroanatomy which is INCREDIBLE-more on that later), I got my first real job, and I was accepted to do some research at the nearby hospital's Cancer Institute. I am so excited!
I hope you all are having a great start to the new year! It's never too late to start making changes! I encourage you to recognize the changes needed and work to become the best/happiest you that you can be! It's easier said than done....but we can do it!
[ Discipline in a Long-Distance Race ] "Do you see what this means—all these pioneers who blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we’d better get on with it. Strip down, start running—and never quit! No extra spiritual fat, no parasitic sins. Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we’re in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he’s there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. When you find yourselves flagging in your faith, go over that story again, item by item, that long litany of hostility he plowed through. That will shoot adrenaline into your souls!"
Talk to you soon!