Wow, it's been a whole year since posting on this blog. I honestly can't believe how fast 2015 has flown by, I guess because I have been so preoccupied with the happenings of life. This year, so many things have changed and molded me into a new and different person. I finally feel like I can put it down in words.
As I've mentioned before, my birthday is in the first week of each year, so I get to associate each year with an age. 2015 was my 24th year on the planet.
This year started off with heartbreak and disappointment, followed by months of feeling so lost. My whole life, I have truly thought I had everything figured out. I had a plan-and dreams and goals that coincided with it perfectly. But in 2015, the floor fell out from under me, and I experienced the 20's confusion everyone talks about. I can't tell you how many times I wished I was little again, like the girl in the picture. Back when I had no idea life was anything more than what I imagined when playing 'house' or with my barbies.
I wandered for what felt like an eternity. I kept reaching out in the dark, blindly grasping for any kind of solution. I desperately wanted a simple answer for all of life's questions, as if that exists...
At 24, I came to a crossroads. I could continue pursuing a path in which every door (and window) kept closing. I could sulk and pout in misery. I could trust that God had a plan for me, get out of bed and go find out what that plan is.
I wish I could say I recovered myself, but my parents had to practically pick me up, put me on my feet and dust me off.
A few weeks later, I landed a great job-full of learning opportunities. A few weeks after that, a new plan fell into my lap.
As 2015 comes to a close, I find it so interesting how it went from a year that I wished I could just delete from my life, to one I actually appreciate-one I am...dare I say....grateful for!
Life is crazy. It's cliche but, boy, is it the TRUTH. I am learning every day to let go of my plans and be open to a life greater than I could ever dream-God's story for my life.
I don't have everything figured out, and probably never will.
But I feel like things can only keep getting better from here.
2016, I am ready for you with a smile on my face.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (The Message Version)